I wonder if that’s a good thing ahaha.
Somehow chou’s posts tend to make me think about how sad my life is. Well, not that I don’t already know it but it just makes me think about it again. Well, I don’t mind though.
Summarizing her post, why bother doing any work at all? Just to become like our parents; all they do is watch tv.
I feel rather bad sometimes when I tell my mum I don’t want to be like her. And I find her life sad. And that kind of stuff. I say it in a rather joking manner. I… I wish I didn’t mean it. But well, I do.
So… We just grow up, toiling and toiling, just to grow old and watch tv?
It’s why I find life ridiculous. It’s why I never saw the point in toiling. I still don’t.
Yes, my attitude towards life is wrong. ‘Putting in little bit of effort to scrape through. It’s not to your benefit.’ As my bio teacher told me the other day. Making me promise in front of the class that I’ll try harder next year. That I’ll do all my tutorials. That I’ll listen to lessons and lectures. I hope I can try harder… Like I do with each passing year.
Yes, my grade for bio is deplorable. But frankly, though I’m highly disappointed with myself, I think I can be satisfied.
After all, it’s a trade-off.
I still don’t see what’s wrong with my mindset. Other than doing below average in grades. Do I honestly care about trying to get like A or B? Or even a C? Seriously, those are just letters. To me that is. Yeah, wow, you got those letters. So? Hope you feel like you achieved something. I’m perfectly fine with my D,E,S. Okay lah, S not so much but as long as I get E and above, I’m contented.
I guess my problem is that I don’t know what I’m striving for so I don’t see the point in striving in the first place.
Sadly, since everyone else is trying so hard to outdo everyone else, if I don’t do anything at all, I’ll fail because everyone else does so much better. Damn, it’s all your fault. You ruin your life and mine at the same time.
For what really? I hope you are happy. With your letters.
Ahaha, yes, some may think I’m an idiot because of this. ‘Aiyah, you get lousy grades so you just want to suan everyone else who did better than you right?’ Am I? If you think so, sure. Though, notice how… Contented I am when I get back my results. Even though they are so much lower than yours.
Haha anyhow.
