Yes I know that all I had to do was to mug like shit the past few days. And get through the promos and enjoy afterwards.
But no, I didn’t manage to do that.
I seem to have this buffer buoy shit that tells me, "It’s alright, just do what you want to do, and accept the consequences." and "Look on the bright side of life, maybe you just aren’t meant to continue like this. (ie only mugging day before exams)"
Yes it’s terrible. And the best part of my console myself syndrome is, "Well, you didn’t try very hard anyway so it’s alright if you screw up."
It’s crazy right.
It’s totally different from other people who think, "I have to try my best in life."
Mine is more of, "I am a minimalist, I’ll just do enough to get by (hopefully that little bit will suffice)."
NOOOO… I’m scared you know.
I can’t tell whether I’ve super high self-confidence or no self-confidence at all.
Anyway, my estate’s mooncake festival was well… Interesting. And then I watched tv till quite late. Can’t believe I stooped to korean drama (HAHA I mean it as a joke! No offence to those who watch it). And the best part of yesterday. I learnt something. I cannot eat pomelos, drink lime juice and drink chocolate milk after that. Even my stomach isn’t strong enough to take it == I ended up purging several times throughout the night lol. Haha, well, I felt rather thin in the morning :) But no, I didn’t lose any weight :’(
Oh and I was thinking about something while bathing in the morning. Oh crap I forgot. Something about taylor swift then… Oh yes I recall. I think the whole doing plastic surgery thing making society more superficial thing is quite dumb. Like, seriously, doing it or not, society is already superficial. There’s a reason why heros and heroines tend to be good looking. There’s a reason why good looking singers/bands have fan clubs. Actually I find that actors and actresses having fan clubs is quite… Dumb. Why do you like those people? Oh because I watch their dramas/movies. And what do you like about them? They… seem nice and so very hot <3<3<3
Seriously == They are just acting out a character, what you should like is the character == And lookswise, yes, just admit that society is screwed already. Come to think of it, if everyone does plastic surgery and is equally good looking, looks won’t matter anymore right! And then society just can’t be superficial anymore and depend on character/ability etc. Now, where do we get the money to finance the poor’s surgery… Nah, we can’t make everyone happy. So, I propose that those who can do plastic surgery, do so. They are making the world a better place even though they are doing so in their own self-interest (just like firms and businesses). Oh wait, but if too many people are good looking, the money spent is wasted right. No, but if you don’t, you’ll be the only ugly one so… Just do it!
Haha, isn’t it funny?
We should seriously stop trying to make ourselves look morally upright because we can’t deny our basal instincts. Good looking triumphs ugly 99% of the time. If you’d like to prove my point otherwise, try making yourself super ugly (maybe don’t bathe for a month, don’t cut your hair, dress like a slob, I dunno, try face paint and roll around in the charcoal, or I dunno, I’m not good at this), and attempt to get people to like you. Good luck trying, weirdo.
And I cannot stand the distinction between make up and plastic surgery. Frankly, I think they are identical. Except that one is permanent and one is not. Means are different, ends are similar. Just admit your vanity seriously. Just because make up seems to harm you a little less, does that mean it is more acceptable than plastic surgery? Why do women put on make up? Is it really a social norm or is it because they just want to look better? Or not being satisfied with their own looks. How about all those slimming centres, hair curling/rebonding, permanent eye lash extension? Once you try those things, you’re no better than a person who does plastic surgery in my opinion. Yes, I am no better than the average person who does plastic surgery. So I really don’t understand why people look at those people like they are freaks of nature. Just because they go to greater lengths to achieve what they want. Oh so now I get why people tend to look at muggers in a different light. Just because they mug more, or maybe just slightly more than you do.
Okay fine, maybe my logic is flawed somewhere, you can point it out. I’m like just ranting/practising AQ. LOL my script will be so interesting if I did write like that ==
Actually, I really should be trying to study right now. Like really really. I can’t stand how relaxed I am. I soooooo relaxed I feel like I’m already on holiday. In fact, I’ve been on holiday the past few days. Oh well, I might like, die tomorrow or something so at least I spent the last few days of my life being moderately happy :) I can’t stand how much of an optimist/pessimist I am.
Oh yeah, I am really scared of females my age. Haha, okay random side-tracking. I suddenly thought about it again when I saw this other female my age who seemed to be bursting with self-confidence so I got rather scared.
I realize I have low self-confidence, and because of that, I just try to dao every other female my age. And then they think I am arrogant or something. For males, it’s easier, I just dao all. And I don’t care what they think because they won’t gossip and stuff (I think). But females, gawd, they are such dangerous species. Once you diss one, the whole pack will come after you.
And so I am really scared of that. I am scared to say hi because I’ll end up faking that I’m happy and high and gregarious, and I don’t particularly fancy making acquaintances so yeah. I’m not a social animal. So yeah, I pretend I don’t see anyone. It’s easier that way.
NOOOO I’m not unfriendly, I’m just… Misunderstood. Unless you want long-term friendship, do approach me. Otherwise, I’m better off alone. I can’t stand how people say hi sometimes and dao sometimes. I can’t take hot and cold treatment, I’ve a weak heart.
Yosh, so my point is gotten across, I’m happy to have blogged so much today and yeah I shall try to study :)